Three Little Birds

Say it with me.. "Whatever you decide to do, do what makes you happy."

 Now breathe. 

If it doesn't make you happy, it's not worth your time. Life is too short to waste your time being unhappy. I don't care if it's a relationship, a job, it doesn't matter...whatever it is....if you can't say to yourself at the end of the day that you are truly happy, then something is wrong. 

When I find myself down, as I sometimes do, I have to stop and just take a step back and ask myself, 

"Why aren't you happy and how can you fix it?"

Usually my answers go from "because he did this" or "because he didn't do this" or "she said this".... I've always heard that when you point one finger at someone, three are pointing back at you. Sometimes we have to take responsibility for our problems. Stop dwelling in the pity party and get up and try to figure out what really has made you unhappy, if it's worth letting yourself be hurt by this, and how the issue can be fixed. 

I realize that sometimes, somethings are out of our hands. I like to call these lovely things, "The Blindside"... 

((((Thhhheee Blindsiiiiiiiiidddddeeee))))

(I hope you read that how I said it..)

The blindside sucks. Bottom line. No sweet or cute way to describe it...it sucks. We've all been there. You may be there today, and if you are, I'm sorry...because it sucks...haha okay okay I know I've already said it..just wanted to sympathize. 

When I get knocked down by the blindside, this is what helps me;  I cry. Weren't expecting that were you? I'm here to tell you, it's okay. It's okay to cry. I give myself an hour...to be really sad and deal with how I am feeling. Don't ignore it, embrace it.  Once your time's up, get up. Get out of the house. Do something productive. Love yourself. By this point there is no turning back, you have got to pick yourself up at and just move along. I was talking to my aunt recently and she said to me,"All you can do is your best. If at the end of the day you know you've done your best and you don't get the results you want, it's not because you didn't do your part.." 

The Blindside is inevitable. It's how you bounce back that really sets you apart.

"If you want to be happy, be. " 

M.

What plans?

I was reading my "Jesus Calling" book tonight and something really jumped out at me. It's actually the post for tomorrow. 

Leave it to me to cheat and read ahead... I'm the girl that usually reads the end of a story first, just because I hate surprises. I'm a planner. I like to know what is ahead of me. So as you can imagine "Letting go and letting God" is pretty hard for me. Giving up control of my life... really hard. However, I do it. I trust God. I let go and I let him do his thing....Usually. I rebel and fight him tooth and nail sometimes bc the stubborn Melesa that we all know and love clearly knows what's right.. Right? Haha she thinks she does.. I make God laugh alot just by telling him my plans...

ANYWAY... Back to my story. I was reading ahead in my Jesus Calling book tonight when tomorrow's devotion slapped me right in the face. If it's okay by you, I would like to share it with you.

"Come to me when you are weak and weary. Rest snugly in My everlasting arms. I do not despise your weakness, My child. Actually, it draws Me closer to you, because weakness stirs up My compassion-- My yearning to help. Accept yourself in your weariness,knowing that I understand how difficult your journey has been.

Do not compare yourself with others, who seem to skip along their life-paths with ease. Their journeys have been different from yours, and I have gifted them with abundant energy.  I have gifted you with fragility, providing opportunities for your spirit to blossom in My presence.  Accept this gift as a sacred treasure: delicate, yet glowing with brilliant Light. Rather than struggling to disguise or deny your weakness, allow Me to bless you richly through it."

Amazing, right? Sorry for all of you that are doing the Jesus Calling devotional bc tomorrow's devotion had to have been written for me and me alone.

 

I hope you all have a lovely week!!

M.

Thankful for Saturdays

Today I need prayer. Unspoken prayers. 

This week I have gotten some news that has just broken me. Broken my heart. No illnesses, nothing like that. Just something from someone I love so much's testimony has just absolutely broken me. 

You never know the battle that someone is facing or has faced. You never know what's really going on.

This has shaped my week... Among other things. Needless to say, I'm glad it is Saturday. 

I spent half of the day yesterday helping my Aunt Karen with her classroom and I'm heading that way again today. Helps get my mind off things and I enjoy decorating her classroom!

My list of prayer requests today is a mile long. If you pray, please say one for me. If you don't pray, call me and we will work on that! ;-) 

Although we may not see the bigger picture we have to have faith that we are taken care of. Luckily God breaks our lives up into 24 hour days. One day, I can do. 

Until next time, 

M.

Seriously!?

So, I'm watching the news tonight and a video came on the screen of 3 fifteen year olds attacking a 13 year old on the school bus. I'm heartbroken. This is absolutely ridiculous.

 A child should not feel threatened or in danger at school! School is a place where a child should go to better themselves, not have to fear what the day has in store for them. This child is being attacked because he told an official at school that one of the boys offered him drugs. Okay, let that simmer. The THIRTEEN year old CHILD was offered drugs by another child. Are you kidding me!?

Who is even supplying these kids with drugs??? I would love to meet them. When I was 13, I was worried about who I would ride with to the Beasley Center birthday party that weekend... not getting beat up on the way home from school.

Why can't kids just be kids? There's so much pressure on them now to act and dress so much older than they are. I mean, kids are compromising their innocence at such a young age now. It's really sad. It's sad that a child who was going to an adult for help got attacked for that very reason.

Kids are so smart. They have all the hateful things that our parents hid from us at their very fingertips. They are all on Facebook, they have access to drugs, they have all of the Internet to their viewing pleasure at the touch of a button. It's on their phones! They can see whatever they want, whenever they want. 

 Who is protecting our youth? Who are going to be the ones to take a stand against this ridiculous bullying? Why wouldn't that bus driver try to break up that fight!? Who was defending that child? You can give me reasons all day and night and I will never understand why this wasn't stopped before the boy's ARM was broken!? Is it going to take another child being hurt before someone puts an end to this?!

Sorry for the soapbox but I am just so disappointed with this tonight. No excuse. Praying for our youth tonight.

M.