All Things Wonderful

I'm overwhelmed at the positive response that I received from my first post. Thank you. It's nice to know that there are other people out there that can relate to my situation.

Okay! No more reminiscing. Only posts about moving forward from now on. Since my first post, so many great things have happened! I have made a new friend. I have reconnected with some old friends. I have faced Florence a few times (if you know me you know this is a big deal!). I actually love Florence now. I've been working out with friends. I started a new diet today. I decided I needed some down time, so I began to make time to read. My sweet girl, Hadley, turned three and she had a very girly princess party in true Hadley fashion..I volunteered with Casa...The list goes on and on.....I couldn't be happier than I am this very minute.

You may be sitting there wondering what the point in listing all the good things going on in my life is....well first of all, it's my blog and I do what I want ;-) hahaha kidding..... No but really, it's to just express how very blessed I am in this moment. I prayed on my knees for years and years for something good to happen for me, for something to go my way, for this, for that,but all the while I forgot to pray for God's will to be done. My prayers were full of "would you, could you, do you mind's" and I would be heartbroken when his answer wasn't yes. Selfish prayers. When I began this blog, I had already been going through an amazing journey with God. A journey that I thought I had already been a part of for years before that, but it wasn't until this spring that it really clicked. I began changing my behavior, trying my best to strengthen my witness, and the kicker was learning how to pray with an open heart. In turn, God may not have given me everything I wanted but he opened my eyes to see all of the wonderful things that I already had.

I am doing the "Jesus Calling" devotion. If you're searching for a devotion.....I believe this one has healing powers! While reading tonight's devotion I came across the words, "Brighten up the world by reflecting who I am." These few words have so much power behind them. Encourage one another. Smile. Give freely. Love fully. Expect nothing in return. At the end of the day, let all the things you do glorify God. I really believe that if you live your life this way, all things wonderful will fall into place.

So far so good!
M.

Melesa - Party of One!

That's me! I am one of the many "twenty something's" who kind of just got stuck in the middle of the hooplah of what we call "The Real World".

 I had a plan, just like everyone else. I had goals, just like you. I had my entire life planned out. I was going to be the girl with the white picket fence, two kids (boy and girl) and a wonderful husband all before 30. I was going to have the job of my dreams, when in reality I didn't even know what that was going to be.  

Have you seen the movie Clueless? I could have been the star! Maybe they will catch me for the sequel.

Here's the reality.  I'm 26. I'm single. I have a job. I have a dog. I'm the last one standing out of my friends when it comes to marriage and babies and I live paycheck to paycheck 95% of the time.

Lately, I've been really down about this. Being 26, in the South ,without being married, or being on your way to being married, is almost like being a unicorn, if you will. It's unheard of! There's a lot of pressure in the Southern culture to have your family going by 30. Well....I guess I'm the unicorn in the room then.

I went through a phase when I was really down on myself for this. I felt left behind. I felt like I deserved these things and it just was something that I had to accept, that these things just weren't in the cards for me. I tried so hard to make some things work that were just wrong from the beginning. I made every excuse possible why the guy with the busted up car, no job, no goals, and no future could someday turn into Prince Charming. Trust me ladies.... He doesn't turn into anything except the old man with the busted up car, no job, no goals and a bunch of kids just like him! No thanks. Just ask my sister,mama, or my girlfriends the winners I kept taking back for a while. Haha trust me, you will feel better about yourself after listening to their tales....it's okay to laugh, I do. :-)

I found myself checking my Facebook religiously to see who was in a better situation than I was. Everyday, someone was getting married or having babies or showing me how beautiful their babies were... Oh and don't you love it when then girls who weren't even in high school when you were are getting engaged and married!??It's not that I don't love seeing them happy. I do. I do enjoy seeing your babies grow up, it's just "Melesa-Party of One" over here felt super inadequate. So, do you know what I did!? I DELETED it today! Sayonara Sucker! I haven't missed you at all today.

Deleting Facebook was step 1 of my plan to really finding who I am and finding out where I fit in this game of Life without the influence and opinions of anyone else. I'm on the mend. I had the most amazing day. My goal for this blog is to just track my progress as I just focus on figuring out where my place in all of this is. I am so excited for what's to come and I promise if you just stay tuned, if nothing else you will be entertained!

M.